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Monday, June 28th, 2004
8:47 pm	pain...to say the least so i got my wisdom teeth taken out on friday, and it fucking sucked balls. my face is still swollen three days later but to make me feel better justin took me to little five today and we bought a hookah. of course he's off to find pot now so we can smoke out of it. for some reason it just doesnt feel like summer, maybe because last summer was actually fun and this summer is nothing but being sick and working with johnny! but at least i still have john and justin, someone else might be missing, but he's still included through my thoughts, and memories! i miss you allin, but i have this strong feeling that our connection will always keep us together, there's no one else that lingers in my mind as long as you do, we've shared eachother in many lifetimes. i cant keep writing, i'm waiting on johns gay, hard core, ass to get over here so we can ditch band practice and go be cool. KATHRYN- i'm trying so hard to get some time to come see you, i will see you, i cant stay away for too long, now i want to cry because i miss you, and i miss elizabeth, maybe it's just the pain killers for my mouth! Current Mood: crappy (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, June 21st, 2004
10:27 pm	well, where do i begin? i havent written in this thing in so long. umm, i never got to go to snellville because i have an appointment to get my wisdom teeth taken out tomorrow. my life is boring, lauren is still a slut, i called her for justin and she was fucking some guy. i'm getting mad so im going to stop here. Current Mood: crazy (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, May 27th, 2004
11:14 pm	im a lobster!!!! Current Mood: cranky (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, May 26th, 2004
11:06 pm	SUMMER so summer is finally here, justin and i are still together, i do have a job and a car and justins getting his own place soon. i guess things are going really good, im satisfied. oh yeah, and i still have john as my best buddy, so what else do i need. well im going back to the doctor which really scares the shit out of me but hopefully ill survive. damn, i cant have one day without a virus haunting me. anyways back to the happy thoughts, i love my boyfriend! Current Mood: cheerful (Comment on this)
Sunday, May 2nd, 2004
1:09 pm	PROM....... I AM NOT SUPERFICIAL, FUCKING BLONDES. Current Mood: crazy (Comment on this)
Monday, April 26th, 2004
1:23 pm	DEPRESSION? have you ever been really depressed? i mean depressed, maybe im not as light-hearted as i thought. the days are dragging on. im trying my god damndist to be who justin wants me to be. but its hard when everything he wants is everything i will never be. he has so much ahead of him and ill still be in high school. will he still want me, will he still have time to think about me? i feel so.... lost. i need more friends, friends that are close enough to touch literally, not just in my mind. im a loser and im fucking mad at morman, i borrowed his nightmare shirt and theres nut on it! how has he become such a whore so quickly. oh, i want the sweet innocent john back! i want so many things back, but obviously im dealing with the fact that they will never be the way they were again. Current Mood: blah (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, April 17th, 2004
2:41 pm	DEATH oh my fucknig god, im dieing. i ate a bunch of acid last night at stones house and got in a fight with brittnie. i dont know how it happened but i suddenly woke up with a killer fucking virus. i just got done watching kill bill, justin fell asleep in the middle of it, and i think im going to go to sleep to, if i can breath. i hate being sick and not breathing through your nose because you cant. fuck. Current Mood: crappy (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, April 12th, 2004
1:18 pm	spring breaks over--NO.......... damn florida was so beautiful, and fun even though i got shit on by a seagull! but now im back in dawsonville, back in school(not that i went today or anything) back to d-ville drama! oh, i missed johnny the most! kathryn what the fuck? give me a response! i love you, and allin, not that he ever talks to me! ive gotta go im at band practice as always! oh yeah, justin played a show, well they played at a keg party and everyone was comming up to me and saying shit like "you're the drummers girlfriend right?" i was like "fuck yeah bitch, im the shit, my boyfriends cooler than you!" i didnt exactly use those words, but it was close to that! well, i have to do my homework, thats what i told justin i was in here doing! Current Mood: busy Current Music: fallen from (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, March 31st, 2004
4:37 pm	APC AND YES IT IS FINALLY TRUE, I AM GOING TO A PERFECT CIRCLE! i'm so fucking happy! not to mention im going to the beach in three days, and allins in a week! spring break is going to be fucking awesome this year, i cant wait! well slipknot is saturday night, and i got my slutty metal-chick outfit! justin hates it, which makes it even better! this month will be 9months, how exciting, we must really love eachother, or maybe hes just waiting for someone better to come along, maybe i am... Current Mood: anxious (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, March 22nd, 2004
1:02 pm	well, well, well i cant believe its been almost a month since ive wrote in this thing! another month another concert. april is slipknot, fearfactory, and chimaira. may is a perfect circle! and i have to go buy tickets for blink 182! oh yeah, and theres a bomb ass show that includes korn, linkin park, the used, and snoop dog! im so there also! god i love the fucking spring time! but not as much as i love kathryn! you look so pretty in your pics! i miss you terribly, and allin even though i'm angry with him! i miss you too eliza-bitch! (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, February 28th, 2004
11:32 am	it is the day so the day has finally arrived, i'm on my way to see afi. its weird though, i look out my living room window and see mormons car, and i wonder where things are going to go from here. i mean we're all growing up, we're all moving in different directions. soon we wont even remember memories that are big to us now, we wont remember anything. we're going to grow up im so scared. im getting lonely already, its all going to get worse when justin finally knocks me up (again) im going to be stuck with just him all my life. Current Mood: blank (8 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, February 26th, 2004
6:15 pm	blahhhhhhhh........ im bored and tired. im trying to think of something to write about, but i really have nothing. my boyfriend sucks, blah, blah, blah, at least we didnt have school today! my boyfriend sucks, but i really do love him, so much! i've often thought about weather or not justin ever reads this, but i dont really care either way. why should i? he knows me! i'm scared that hes helping dustin sell drugs, he said he was considering it, and of course i yelled at him, and told him how stupid that was. and you know he yelled back at me too. GOD, WHY DO I HAVE TO LOVE HIM SOOOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH? he sucks!!! slut slut slut-----who thinks i'm a slut? theres my question for everyone. be honest, the three of you who read this know me better than anyone. Current Mood: confused (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, February 24th, 2004
6:45 pm	why me? okay, where do i start? well i guess ill start from the beginning. i went to see jon munda on saturday and i dropped britnie off at the mall because munda didnt want to see her. well while justin and i were at mundas, britnie went to jessicas (savages g-friend) work and told her something is going on between me and munda. not only that but she said that i didnt want to do it, so i brought justin along so he wouldnt hit on me. i cant write anymore-----------justin just told me some fucked up shit. my boyfriend, oh why, i thought he was someone he isint. Current Mood: crushed (1 Comment |Comment on this)
2:00 pm	UNBELIEVABLE----not quite! so yes it is true, john and i made up, and so what if it puts me at ease a little? i need a good stress reliever every now and then. who doesnt? johns a good person, he just has a lot to learn. shit, i probably have more to learn than he does, but its nice to know im not the only one. ELIZABETH i was all about coming to see you and kathryn this weekend, but there's only one problem, AFI is saturday, so i hate to say this but i'm going to have to wait. i love you but you know how excited i am to see them saturday. well i dont really have anything to say so im just going to go. i love so many people, i really do, thats great! Current Mood: content (Comment on this)
Tuesday, February 10th, 2004
1:34 pm	oh my future husband hott hott hott (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, February 6th, 2004
6:52 pm	oh deftones well i'm still at home, still bored, and still a piece of shit. things dont change in dawsonville, (go figure). well deftones is eating my heart right now, im getting more pitiful. maybe its because justin hasnt called me all night, well never mind, i just called him and hes fucking sleeping. sleeping when i need to talk to him, what the fuck. i no longer have a relationship, i dont have shit. fuck it, fuck all of it. munda's telling me not to break it off with justin because i'll really regret it, no matter what i say. maybe hes right but maybe i'll regret staying with him. i need counseling, or some tequila. Current Mood: crappy Current Music: deftones-change (4 Comments |Comment on this)
6:28 pm	cheyenne I am just a girl, that's what they may say. That I am not special, in any kind of way. I just wish everyday, that I could disappear. It's not the other kids, but myself that I do fear. Every night before bed, when the lights start to dim. I wonder where is he, when I really need him? Sometimes i just want, to bring my life to an end. To become the sun and the snow, the rain and the wind. to all my friends you know i love you more than life itself, you are my world. and dont ever think that you are not needed. Current Mood: cold Current Music: Tom Petty- last dance with mary jane (1 Comment |Comment on this)
5:57 pm	back at home on a friday night so i went to hang out with brittany and i didnt eat a roll, but her and jennifer did and they were really fucked up they were in the bed with john cain and dustin (who werent rolling). but despite all the fucked up madness that was going on, i found out justin wasnt hanging out with john, john was at toms with his new girlfriend katie. so where is justin? hes sitting at home by himself and hes mad i went out and he didnt. but i cant say anything cuz i get mad for the same thing. but off the subject i have to tell you something. today at school was the craziest day ive ever had. first this kid got in trouble with the principal and started running down the hallways yelling "FUCK THIS SCHOOL" a bunch of teachers were running down the hallways trying to catch him and he ran out the front door and took off. then this girl named jennifer (justins girl friend-little cute red head) slit her wrist in the front office. and then this special ed kid took off his pants and ran to the softball field. they had to call over the intercom for him and they said "WE GOT ANOTHER ONE OUT AT THE SOFTBALL FIELD, HE HAS NO PANTS ON"!!! it was so fucking funny, everyone almost pissed their pants. funny, funny. oh i miss you allin, and i miss elizabeth and kathryn too. kathryn i just want to grab you, and kiss you, and love you. i'm sorry babe, i love you. the time goes by slower and the days run in to each other. id like to quote myself -"THEY SAY ITS THE DRUGS, I SAY ITS JUST ME, DRUGS ARENT THE CAUSE, THEIR THE EFFECT." eat your heart out jon munda! . (2 Comments |Comment on this)
1:53 pm	finally the weekend god damn it's finally here. of course justins off to hang out with john, and im off to hang out with brittany and jennifer. and speaking of john what the fuck is up with the X's on his hands? what the fuck john, what did you say about the x's on your hands huh? what the fuck did you say? whatever have fun with your tight pants gloves on your hands and hard core dancing. you fucking sell out. anyways dont get me started on that. meat is murder right kelly? you dumb bitch, i saw you eating a chicken sandwich at lunch today! oh, im going to go fucking crazy. how is it that people still fucking shock me? die cheerleader die. sorry, anyways im going out tonight, and i know i'll be doing something crazy if im with brittany. she said she was going to buy some beans tonight, and im going to be so fucked because i have to go to get my license tomorrow. but i guess i can handle my shit. i just hope justin doesnt find out, because he'll fucking flip, he'll murder me. fuck him he did crack for 3 months behind my back. why cant i eat a bean for one night behind his back? (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, February 4th, 2004
2:23 pm	another great day in d-ville first, justin go suck a fat cock, cuz im not going anywhere near yours anymore. yesterday i threw justin a condom, and he said what is this for? i said, i told you if you were going to fuck other bitches use a condom. everyone acts like they saw this coming from miles away, well i didnt. justin swears to the holy grave that he hasnt done anything wrong. why should i believe a fucking liar? can i say anythings good in my life right now? well, i am going to 40 below summer on monday and afi on the 28th, and i have an appointment saturday to get my license. so why am i bitching, well i guess because its what im good at. god damn it, now im on the phone with justin and of course we have to talk about lauren. justins telling me how stupid this is. now hes turning it around on me hes like ill never know if you cheat on me and hes fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck justin fucked lauren without a condom, hes sticking the same dick he stuck in her in me..../././..fuck why why me i dont need this, i dont want this. he fucked her without a condom, without a condom he fucked her. oh justin i bet you wanted to nut all inside that bitch didnt you DIDNT YOU? (3 Comments |Comment on this)